Something is going on in the world. I know what the prophecies of the world's religions say, and I know that there are a lot of so-called "conspiracy theories" going around, and I know what they say. But whatever is happening, it's going to be something very different than what we expect.
I have a sense of openness to a wider perception, and a culmination of consequences. A sense of futility of things around me; a hunger for meaning and connection to a higher reality. There is the inescapable sense of a finality, an ending. I feel the urge to strip my worldly prosthesis to whatever is absolutely necessary; and carry what I need within me. To be, rather than have.
I also feel tensed up for something. Like I have to hold my ground somehow.
Once in a while, though, I feel moments of optimism. An anticipation of something wonderful, other times, I'm filled with dread.
All of humanity is going to change. Most people won't be ready for it; and among those will be those who think they are preparing in the best way. It is a step into a new level of our existence. and when that happens, we may have to abandon something we were once very much dependent upon. Something we thought we couldn't live without and built a cult of romance around. Our illusions will be rudely shattered.
Those who are not ready are people who never faced their human potential. Then, suddenly, they will be faced with a change in their environment that they could not imagine or comprehend; and it will be very hard for them.
As far as my comment about "among those will be those who think they are preparing in the best way" there are people who possess "power" - i.e. political, military, economic, etc. who will be out of their element, and interpret these events only through their own narrow vision. They will cause more harm than good; as they will think in terms of containment, triage, or expediency in realms where their areas of expertise will have become obsolete and irrelevant.
Imagine if a 13th century Japanese carpenter suddenly found himself in a life-or-death situation where he had to prevent an impending disaster at a 21st century nuclear power plant. Or perhaps, imagine an intelligent and accomplished lieutenant in the US Marines in a life-or-death situation where he had to represent humanity to a space faring extraterrestrial race who had no concept of war, and whose language was based entirely on abstract mathematics. There would be misunderstandings.
It feels like I'm fighting with something greater than myself. I don't know how to articulate what I want to say.